...is totally making me broke. lol

but it more than worth it.

I sat for 2 hrs and 45 mins and was ready to fucking crawl out of my skin (yowch) so i had to stop, but I am in love with it and its not even done.
going back to finish it on June 4th. I think maybe it was worse because the outlining made it super tender, so given time to heal, just going in to color more and add backround miiiight not be quite as bad (I hope)

I <3 it though :D

So.
I've been wanting to get a tattoo for well over a year now, and I've been tossing some ideas around.
I want to get it on my left side below my ribs.
I had multiple kidney surgeries before my first birthday, and have 2 pretty big scars in that spot, one on each side.
Now don't get me wrong, I'm kind of proud of these scars, they're the reason I'm alive... However, the one on my left got infected the first time they attempted to operate, and they had to reopen it and, well, try again. The result i a pretty wide scar that distorts my left side.
I like to think that I'm not too much of a fatty, but that scar makes me incredibly insecure about being seen without a shirt. Which makes summers kind of sucky. And well, I'd rather be confident about my body, and that scar makes that kind of hard.

ANYWHO.
I'm thinking of getting a combination of the following images:

This would be the general design:


I miiight incorporate this flower:


Aaaand this butterfly:


and this is the size and placement I think I want:

(Size )


(Placement)

and I want to find an artist who can make the colors as rich as this:




What do you think?????

so.... im probably transferring to salem state next semester to get an apartment w/ the lovies & mostly because they have a better program... I'm going to be a biology major (like i am now) with a minor in nuclear medical technology. =]
thats the plan, anyhow.

life is good
love is great
friends are amazing
<3

Soooo...

I got a B+ in Bio , a B- in Chem (shock of all shocks), an A- in Precalc, and an A- in Writing... My Geog grade hasnt been put in yet, but If I did as well as I'm pretty sure i did, then i prob. made dean's list!!!

I hate sleeping 7 feet in the air.

=[

so this is my life.

My Chemistry professor sucks.
interested in what I learned today in Chemistry?
this is what we watched.




it varies, but basically this is what we do.
I am paying tuition to watch youtube.

fuck my life.

today was awesome
=)
After we got up, joe and i just took the bus to stopnshop and walked ack to my mom's house. we pretty much just hung out here all day , which was cool. timmy stopped by.. it was so cool, to see him, and after he left i made us dinner, and we just watched tv til my mom got home. I love fall. it's just cold enough out to want some hot tea or cocoa or something. its just cold enough for a warm house to be so freaking cozy =)

joeeee's coming to see me at school
=)

everybody else should tooooooo......

I'm becoming less defined as days go by
Fading away
And well you might say
I'm losing focus
Kinda drifting into the abstract in terms of how I see myself

The past week has been really strange.
never really thought I'd party at school.. but its been a good time.
I just wish it wasnt so shitty for joe =(

...it'd also be nice if my roommates didnt have 6+ guys in the room at any given time.
.....it'd be even better if they went to bed before 1 am when i have class at 8.
.......it would be BETTER STILL if they didnt wake me up stumbling in all the time at 3 am.

=/

on a brighter note, I got a job as a research assistant to one of the professors here.

...and Kayla has a kitten! i am sooo freakin excited about going to framingham next week to see them! =D


goodnight!

I'm going to go fucking insane in this forced triple without class to go to.
there is NOTHING to do, and my roommates are already like friends and im pretty much definitly going to be the one who has to move eventually.
ugh. this is so effing annoying.
im wicked bored and i dont know anybody.
=[

i hate being a hour away.
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and now im wicked bummed out.

and alone.

fuckin empty apartment.

I can't believe I'm leaving Beverly tomorrow.. =(
I'm excited, but I'm gonna miss it alot!
Its so surreal...
just finished packing and its really hitting me that move in day is tomorrow..
HOLY CRAP!

4 more daysss!

i need an outlet.

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PRESSURE! pushin' down on me! pushin' down on you
no man ask for...

I'm under pressure.

=(

my job = poop.
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i want to go back to Maine.

I graduated!
...It has been really good being out of school, but in a strange way, I miss it. ...alittle bit.
For the past few weeks I feel like I've been living somebody else's life... prom was so much fun, but graduation was completely surreal. I love that I'm done, and I have so much to look forward to with college in the fall, and you know.. life after high school, but its pretty sad that it's over.
On a brighter note, I got macbook from my mom and bill and emily for graduation.. It's so much fun and I love it.. I just have to buy MS Office for it before I go to school. I also got some money for graduation, which I have already spent way too much of, and I need to go to the bank and deposit what I have left before it too disappears.

I hate my job. its been hell this week between the heat, and my cranky ass boss, and all of the new people. I swear to God, they try to find the biggest idiots they can when they're hiring. these people have been there for a month, and I'm still doing most of thier work, and correcting tons of mistakes every day. I'm basically doing supervisor's work, while still making minimum wage. Im applying to Victoria's Secret and Borders ASAP. maybe I can make better money than I am working like 20 hours a week in the sweatshop that is Flairs.

Going to MAINE tomorrow with Joe, Marie, Brian, and Kayla! =D =D =D!!!!!!!
yay!

I'm done with High School?
....holy....shit....

I mean, I have finals next wekk, but I only have two... and I go in for my test when its scheduled and then leave.. so.. i'd say im pretty much done...
GAH!